Almost a new year... :)

I have decided to be less hard on myself for not updating this blog more regularly. It is more like a place for me to get my thoughts, that are usually floating around in my mind, into text form so that they float less.

Tonight I was doing some thinking about my summer in Namibia, Africa. While I was there, I was very distracted by things and people that I missed at home. I felt so isolated while I was there and sometimes I regret that I was not more in the moment. However, tonight I decided that I shouldn't apologize for who I was then and how I spent my time or what my thoughts were on most of the time. That experience was nothing like I thought it would be and I think that's what I needed most.

I think we all have the power to let our lives play out in many different ways. There was a time when I saw myself traveling a lot, being single and figuring out life this way. However, Matt came into my life in the most perfect of moments and now I am thrilled to do all my figuring with him by my side. I think about having a family one day and buying our first home. He is my best friend and I know that we will only grow closer with time.

A lot of good things are happening right now. I feel the Spirit of Christ working in my life and it feels so real and peaceful. I have been asking for God to show me how to have an authentic relationship with him. I feel that he is answering my prayer. He is also showing me how faithful He is, even when I am not so faithful.

Matt's grandpa is recovering from some medical issues. We visited him today and I was glad to hug him and tell him that we love him. He has the sweetest and most gentle heart.

Thanks for reading.

L