family love.

Last night, we were informed that my Grams has a spot on her lung that could be cancerous. This kind of news brings a rare kind of sadness and fear. But, today the lung specialist said that he did not think it it cancer! My family is overwhelmed with thanks. Before we found out this news, my family was all together at the hospital. We laughed and spoke positively about the situation. It was our first time to hang out with my family since we got engaged...

Matt really is my family. He fits right in and it is the best feeling to have him there with me, in hard moments and in the blissful moments.. My family loves him and hugs him like he belongs, he does belong. I am so excited about marrying him and taking his name!!!

There are so many things to be thankful for! I guess this is going to be a gush-blog for a while.. can't help it!

lj

making dinner..

tonight I was making dinner for Matt and me. Usually the TV is going in our house even if noone is watching it. I had it turned on mute because I was on the phone earlier. I can't see the TV from the kitchen, so it was quiet and still in the house as I prepared dinner. I love when I know that Matt is headed home and will be walking through the door to greet Vegas and me soon. I also loved how quiet my mind was as I waited for the water to boil for our mac n' cheese. I reflected on the conversation that I had with Ashley earlier in the afternoon. So many times during our chat I felt so much joy and excitement for where she is in her life. We have been dear friends for a LONG time and I know we will be for many many years to come.

She will be standing with Matt and me when we get married. I am so lucky to have sweet friends who I can talk to so long that I lose track of time. We can talk about the deep things in our hearts and trust that no judgement will take place. We can celebrate with each other when we experience victories.. and cry with one another when there are hard times.

Today, I think we may have decided where we are getting married! I want to remember all the moments of this time and take it all in. I am marrying the love of my life.. and I couldn't have more peace... love you, Matt.

Love,
Lindsi

my stomach is in knots...

Today we find out if the venue is available. Another couple/person/group has it on hold, but they have to decide by today. I have looked at so many photos of this venue and it is beautiful, outside ceremony/inside reception (which is what we want!), and they allow us to use our own catering and bring in our own alcohol. Unfortuneately.. they are super booked. So, hopefully this day will be open.

If not, I know we will find a wonderful place. But it would feel so great to nail that down. We have been engaged for 3 weeks and I have already found a million more reasons why I want to spend my life with Matt! I think that we are a great balance for each other. Well, I will keep you posted about the venue! We should know.. very soon. yay!

Lindsi

most wonderful time of my life!

June 24, 2009.. Matthew asked me to marry him!!!!! AHHHH!!! So exciting!! The truth is.. I can't wait to be his wife, his partner for always. He got my attention when I was 13.. for so many reasons. I could see that he was real, sincere and loving. He is still all of those and a man.. he was a boy when I met him and now he is a man.. this incredible, loving man who I love with all my heart. It feels so good to know that he is the one I was made for. He supports me in every way and our relationship brings me so much peace and joy.

I believe that the Lord knits our hearts and when he does.. He knits another heart just for us. My heart is Matt's. He makes me better. I know that our life will be so sweet. It will be filled with joys and some pains... but isn't it beautiful when 2 separate people join together and say,

"No matter what I will stay, no matter what I am here, and no matter what I am yours."

So this post is dedicated to Matty, my love. From the moment I said yes, our love has grown and I know that it will continue to grow! YAY! Thank you for reading my mushy post.. I can't help it!

:)

lj (almost ljn!)

over active brain.

I am going to assume that I am not the only female on Earth who thinks too much. I have found that the effects of this condition are quite negative. I have so many things in my life to be so thankful for. I am so blessed, and yet I let the unknown, the unresolved, the inevtiable life stuff rob me. I am missing out on the beauty of being in my early twenties, in love with the man I was made for, pursuing the career of my choice, healthy, strong, with a bright future and so many things to look forward to.

Yet, I worry, I fear, I dwell, I analyze and I miss out. I have used this blog for many things. But for me, it is healing and therapeutic to write. For whatever reason, I don't write very much anymore, but when I do I find comfort and release. As often as I can, I am going to come to the blog and write about my journey to healthier mental habits. And I am sure I will share other things as well. If you read this, I hope that you can find something to relate to or maybe think of something great you can share with me.

My 24th birthday is this week.. it is a crazy and busy week.

Today, I am going to do what I can to get my school work done. Then I am going to go to Matt's softball game and be with our friends. When I get home.. I am going to spend quality time with him and do my best not to be distracted by what is undone. There will always be things to do, a list of chores or errands or assignments or papers to grade.. So I want to cherish the time I have to talk with Matt and connect with him. I want to grow next to him and be the woman he needs. Right now, I feel like I am lacking because I give into my stress so often and forget to enjoy the present.

RIP Phillip Talley

Today is one month since Phillip's death. I think about him every day. That was a special time, miss you Philly. July 26, 1983- July 13, 2008

Thank you, Kelly! I love my page. You are a wonderful friend and sister.

Rocky (my brother's pit bull) met our puppy last night. They are great friends already! We still don't have a name, but she is part of our family. She is hanging out with me now, actually.

I am working on vacation plans for labor day weekend, I can't wait to be a lazy beach babe. I am buying like 15 magazines to read. I can't wait to celebrate with Ashley that next weekend.

I find out where I will be student teaching next Tuesday. I am looking forward to so many things. I am in a new season of life and it just kind of snuck up on me. I am looking forward to the days to come.

Cait and I are hanging tonight, my bestie est. 1998. Life is good and sweet.

Thank you for reading! I am sure, like with all things, this blog with evolve and hopefully provide you with more reading pleasure in the future.

Have a sweet day!

Lindsi

First post of 2008!

Meet our new puppy, she is a doll!

I am still not quite sure of now to navigate this blog, however, I will blog anyway! I am really happy. Summer school is over, my last day at Primrose was last week (not that I was happy to leave, I adore that place and all the people that fill its halls and classrooms). I have over a week to chill and rest up for the semester that awaits me. Student teaching in Arlington, tutoring at Porter... I am really thankful for the friends in my life. I am glad for the time I have been given to invest in those relationships. Brian and I visited a church this morning and we both want to go back. I feel refreshed and feel like I have so many things to look forward to. Phillip has been gone for almost a month (3 days until..). I know that his death has changed my life, and I will always love more deeply and live more fully. I feel strong and open. Every day is precious..

Thank you for reading! Let me know how I can read yours and I gladly will.

Love,

Lindsi